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TMNT - Shattered Mind - P9 (Month 4 - Week 2)

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TMNT - Shattered Mind - Part 9 – (Month 4 / Week 2)

(TMNT CC are AU based on 2003 version, April is 23 as the turtles are 20)
Warning (Rated: PG13) Disturbing Content, Foul Language,
(This is Not a Death Fic)
Please Don’t Read if you don’t like this stuff.
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Month 4 / Week 2
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Poking at the fire with a cast iron stick, April watched the flames dance, for over two weeks she has lived at her family farm alone, a thing she hated most, but in turn she need too for her own sake and for his.
 
Part of her wondered on Donnie’s condition, her fear was still there with him, but she didn’t blame him anymore, she couldn’t stay mad at him for what he did to her, part of her made excuses that it was his illness that drove him to doing such a thing, but that said her trust in him was wavering.
 
Slowly getting used to her new body that resemble a painted turtle with subtle marks and all, also for reasons she wasn’t sure of, she somehow still had her long red hair that she swore was more red then before and longer, with a bit of a curl.
 
At times she found it hard to grasp what she was, it wasn’t easy especially the balance problems which she still had some issues on, it was taking some time to get accustomed to her shell, even looking in the mirror took her some getting use too.
 
For the first week she desperately tried not to go by anything that had a reflection, denial was her way to deal, then slowly that came to pass, she was a turtle, not human, that said feeling sorry for herself wasn’t getting her nowhere, it only made her more lonely, and brought memories of the past she wished she never wanted to venture into again.
 
(I can’t let myself fall again… if I do who will catch me this time?)
 
Deep in thought as questions plagued her, what was in store for her now, she technically could still be a photographer, yet she would have to make sure she didn’t have to make any person to person contact when selling her photos or be noticed be anyone when taking them.
 
With a huge sigh she sat down, letting her body sink into the couch wrapping herself with a large heavy quilt, winter was here, and she spent most of her time cutting wood so she didn’t have to freeze and to help clear her mind.
 
For groceries she made a deal over the phone with the local store to deliver, stating she was crippled and she couldn’t leave and answer the door.
 
She told them that the person that helps her only comes once a day so they can handle the grocers if they just leave it on the front porch.
 
So far it worked they charged her visa and she always insisted in give a good tip for their assistance.
 
Yawning, April considered a nap was in order, for the cold did make her a bit more sleepy, time to time she found it hard for herself to get warm, one day she had to wrap herself with three heavy blankets just to feel a bit warm.
 
She ponder on the reason, could it be that she was now a turtle, she laid back closing her eyes, thinking of warm thoughts as she drifted to sleep.
 
A ringing sound broke the veil of the silence as it caught her ear; it was the shell cell, forgetting what it sounded like she almost jumped out of her shell.
 
Scrambling around to find it for she couldn’t remember where she had it last, she discovered it was hiding behind the couch, uncertain how that happened she answered, “Hello?”
 
“April, it’s me, Leo,” Leo sound kind of concerned like something was worrying him, fear started to creep up to her, did something horrible happen?
 
“Hi Leo what’s wrong? You sound upset,” she asked as sweetly as she could, hoping it would ease the turtle, and he would tell her what was going on.
 
“April are you still at the farm?”
 
“Yes why?”
 
(Why would he want to know if I am still at the farm?) 
 
April already promised Leo she would tell him if she decided to leave and where she was going…
 
“We can’t find Donnie…,” Leo went silent.
 
(They can’t….find Donnie…?!)
 
Sitting down April felt scared to ask more, with a breath she got the courage to, “What do you mean you lost Donnie, what happened?”
 
In a few words Leo explained the past two weeks, Donnie was acting strange, at first he was depressed, then out of nowhere he started to show signs of aggression not towards anyone in particular more towards himself, he kept mumbling, he wouldn’t make eye contact to anyone.
 
Then out of the blue the other day Donnie was just gone, no trace of him, he didn’t have a shell cell, nothing.
 
Leo and his brothers have been searching for him all night, with out a lead.
 
“Do you think he would come here? Does he even know where here is?” April had to ask, to see if that was even a possibility, hoping not for how would he get there and in this cold.
 
“No we never told him, I don’t know where he is. April do you have any clue or idea where we can look, that we haven’t already?” Leo sound frantic.
 
All they knew he could be in the cold somewhere, with a storm warning in affect for that night, if they didn’t find him who knows if they would find him in the morning alive and well.
 
Biting her lip, she contemplated on the situation, for the life of her she couldn’t figure out where he might have gone too, “Leo I’m coming back.”
 
“What?! April I didn’t call you to ask you to come back…I mean are you sure?”
 
“Yes you need all the help you can get to find Donnie. Who knows if somehow he finds out I am coming back he might just show up at the lair… That said I’m still upset with him, but if something has happened to him and I didn’t help, I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.”
 
With a sigh on the other side of the cell, Leo agreed, “Thanks April, I appreciate it. I will be owing you one for this.”
 
“No need Leo, I will be in town within an hour or so,” April got off the cell and scrounged up some clothes to wear, everything she owned didn’t fit her right because of her shell, she was lucky to find some old clothes that belong to her late uncle who was quite a large man in his time.
 
Bundled she made sure everything was off and the fire was out, she figured she wouldn’t be coming back anytime soon, she headed outside towards the barn where the car that she finished fixing up was waiting for her.
 
Within an hour she reached New York City, during the drive she pondered on all the possible places she could think of, that Donnie could be at and she even put into consideration of what his condition was to give her a better idea.
 
If she was correct he was upset with her, or at least upset she left, that said he might be looking for her, so anywhere she has met him in the past was a possibility, that said she informed Leo on those locations on the phone.
 
Then as she reached the city it hit her, Leo said they checked her apartment, did they just check the apartment or the whole building?
 
April couldn’t remember if she ever told them that the building belongs to her, which included the antique shop and the basement, which in turn the month Donnie was at her place she did bring him down there to do laundry.
 
Not bothering to call Leo with the new idea, being only a couple minutes away anyways and the fact the brothers were looking else where, April made the decision to check it out on her own.
 
Parked in the alleyway so no one could see her, she snuck into the building by the side door, as she entered the first thing she notice was a odd smell, it had an iron tinge to it, unsure what would make such a smell she looked around.
 
Taking her time, she was wary on the smell alone, close to the stairs that lead to the basement; she swore she heard some sound coming below.
 
“Stupid…stupid…”
 
Looking down, all she could see was darkness, yet for sure someone was down there, the voice she heard was so low, but she swore it kept saying stupid.
 
Creeping down the stairs, she watched her footing trying not to step on the steps that creaked; at the bottom the voice was clearer to make out.
 
“Why…me hurt her…why…”
 
(Donnie?)
 
The voice was coming from down the hall, around the corner where the washing machines were.
 
“Donnie did…didn’t…w..w..want…hurt April…stupid…stupid…”
 
Taking her time April went towards his voice, around the corner there he sat, cradling himself with blood stained hands, his body was scratch up as he hit himself.
 
(…oh my god…)
 
“It Donnie fault…w...w...why not Donnie p…p…put April back… April hhate Donnie… April hate Donnie…Stupid STUPID,” Donnie raised his hand to hit himself once again; quickly April intervened grabbing his hand before he did so.
 
Startled, Donnie jumped, then slowly turned his head looking at her, suddenly he started to tremble as fear filled his eyes, forcefully Donnie reefed his hand away from April as he scrambled back, smacking his shell into the washing machine, nowhere to go he looked wildly for a way out.
 
(Is he scared of me?)
 
“Donnie,” April said softly hoping it would calm him down.
 
Shaking his head violently Donnie held it, “NO no no, April no here, April hate Donnie…April don’t...s...s...see Donnie again…no no no.”
 
Kneeling down to put herself at his level, April still kept her distance, she didn’t want to provoke him, “Donnie, I am here, please look at me.”
 
“No no no!! Donnie bbbb…bad…Tttthey say Donnie hurt April…April mmmad to Donnie… Donnie not kkknow Donnie hurt April… Donnie not mean t…t…too…,” Donnie started to cry, holding himself.
 
“Donnie…you did hurt me, but I am not mad at you, I am mad at what your illness has made you do.”
 
Looking at her, quickly he looked away, he couldn’t face her, “Tttthey said Donnie put April in pain…me not know…Donnie w…w…want April to know…n..n..not hurt April… Donnie want April back tto April…no no no ttthey say Donnie can’t…can’t…why?”
 
(He doesn’t understand what he has done, does he? Did he think this was something that he can just flip a switch and poof it would be reversed?)
 
“Donnie, you changed me into a turtle so I would understand that you wanted me to be your mate, then you were going to change me back?” April asked him, wondering if he only changed her to put her in a position where she was more likely to understand him.
 
Donnie nodded as he sob more, “Y…y…yes…they say Donnie can’t…why? Donnie dddon’t know why, big box made April same Donnie, why it nnnot April back ttto April?”
 
Slowly April got up walking towards him, Donnie shuttered as she did, ignoring it she came beside him as she wrapped her arms around him, “Donnie listen to me, yes you did something wrong, but I didn’t just leave for that reason. I left because I needed time to think and for you to realize what you have done. I am not mad at you… remember I told you I will always forgive you right, then please stop beating yourself up. It’s not entirely your fault; did you know that the machine would put me in great pain?”
 
Donnie shook his head sniffing; she looked at him in wonder, “Then Donnie why didn’t you shut the machine off, when I was screaming in pain?”
 
As Donnie made eye contact, April could clearly see he was overwhelmed by the question as if he didn’t understand what she was talking about, then it hit her, was the machine sound proof?
 
“Donnie did you even hear me when the door of the machine was shut?”
 
Shaking his head, he still tried to understand, then tears started to pour as he tried to hurt himself again, “Donnie hurt Aaapril! Donnie hhhurt April!….sstupid stupid, Donnie bad! Bad Donnie!”
 
“Donnie stop it, don’t hurt yourself,” April cried trying to fight him, in the struggle he accidently knocked her over, more like she lost her balance again, but Donnie didn’t realized this as he freaked out thinking he hurt her.
 
In shame Donnie bolted pass her, towards the stairs.
 
(Shit I have to stop him! Before he does something rash!)
 
Scrambling to her feet April ran after him up the stairs, reaching the top she realized Donnie wasn’t in sight; the sound of a door closing caught her attention.
 
(Oh no, he didn’t go to the roof did he?!)
 
Looking over towards the door that led to the roof, April’s heart leapt into her throat, quickly she reached the door looking up the stairs, the top door was wide open as cold air rushed into the stair case.
 
It was so fierce it knocked the door out of her hand as it slammed fully open, the storm was approaching and from what the weather station predicted it was going to be the worst one in ages, with winds raging up to 60 mph or more.
 
Not stopping she ran up the stair, frantically April called Leo on the shell cell, “Leo here.”
 
“Leo! Donnie is at my apartment, get over here fast,” she ordered him not taking a breath, as her lungs burned.
 
At the top she dropped the cell, for on the edge Donnie stood there, staring down, was he going to jump?!
 
“Donnie don’t,” April rushed towards him.
 
Not reacting to her pleas he continued looking down, “Donnie bad, Dddonnie hurt April …a...a…again…”
 
(I have to stop him!)
 
“Donnie you didn’t hurt me I lost my balance!” she cried, yelling at him at the top of her lungs so the wind wouldn’t drown her voice, “Please Donnie get away from the edge!”
 
“Donnie bad…”
 
“No you were not bad Donnie, please don’t!”
 
Finally looking at her, his eyes were covered in fear and regret, it broke her heart.
 
“Donnie please come away from there,” April pleaded at him extending her hand hoping he would reconsider.
 
As she took another step towards him, horror hit her when she felt the ice under her feet, before she could reacted the wind blew fiercely from her side, catching her off guard as the wind over powering, forced her to slide across the roof.
 
Unable to stop April screamed as she hit the edge then she felt her body fall, suddenly a strong set of hands wrapped around her embracing her, the last thing she recalled was the sounds of a thud, with a huge crash accompanied by the deafening wind engulfed her within a blanket of darkness.
 
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By: Sampsonknight
Word Count: 2,497
Warning: Warning (Rated: PG13) Disturbing Content, Foul Language, (this is not a death fic)
Please Don’t Read if you don’t like this stuff.
Disclaimer: The TMNT isn’t mine and this is just a fan fiction writing. No money is being made on this story.

Summary: After April finding herself in a cage makes an unsettling discovery, she finds herself in a situation she never thought possible. As she sacrifices everything, her way of life, to make things right. (TMNT CC are AU based on 2003 versions, April is 23 as the turtles are 20)
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Poor April...

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NO! YOU BASTURD! NEXT CHAPTER PLEASE!!!!!